Blonde Bitch published

Posted on: 24 June 2021

If you would have said to me even 8 months ago, that I would be here: sat with my published book in my hands, that is available worldwide, I wouldn’t have believed you. I think that deep down it was a dream of mine however I didn’t realize that until it actually happened. Why? Because I used to think that it was unrealistic, that I wasn’t bright enough or simply that I wouldn’t get accepted by publishers, let alone three.

It’s weird to look back at that mindset: I can’t change the past but all I can say I was so wrong.

I’ve read Blonde Bitch so many times its actually embarrassing. However, I had never read it in print. So last night when I did, I pretended like I was a reader, like I was you reading Blonde Bitch for the first time. I laughed, I cried, I smiled and I screamed. And you know what? I felt proud. I had this moment as I read the final line, I just sat there and said “wow, I actually wrote this.” As people we are always so focused on the future that it’s hard to sit and actually reflect. It’s hard to be proud of yourself. Yet here I am. Proud. Something I rarely feel to be honest. Not about myself anyways.

It hasn’t been easy; I’m not going to lie. The publishing process taught me things about myself that I had never known before. My ego was bruised, but I don’t think that’s always bad…I had sleepless nights worrying and constantly thinking about “why didn’t I do this?” or “That would be better.” I learnt something important: I’m always thinking about what’s next instead of living in the present for a little while. And I don’t think I’m the only one.

It’s been a once in a lifetime opportunity for me, a teenage girl who just wanted to make her voice heard. Yet here I am, here we are! Of course, this wouldn’t be possible without the constant support from my Wattpad readers. You aren’t my fans, you’re my friends.

I feel like I’m on cloud nine and I have Blonde Bitch to thank for that and this incredible opportunity that I have been given, as a sixteen-year-old girl.

Annabelle Shaw